There are a lot of changes coming the Dickison family way right now. It started with getting a new third carseat a couple months ago. Then came all the new baby things. Now we need a new car to fit us all before the baby herself comes in a couple weeks, and then a new apartment right after that. This is an exciting time but a daunting one too. I am not a person who likes or does naturally well with change. So, with the future so unknown, I am working to focus on the things that I are right in front of me and the things that God is so clearly teaching me.
One of those such things is forgiveness. With my two tinies crawling, clambering, and clinging to me most of the day, life is busy, and I find myself going whole days forgetting what Jesus’s forgiveness means for me and what it means for my kids. I so easily waft about in my own fog of guilt and shame, confessing over and over all of my sins, not realizing that my Jesus has already wiped them clean away by taking them upon Himself and dying on the Cross. What immeasurable Grace is that!
I remember the first time my husband explained forgiveness to our daughter. She was about 17 months old, just a baby. He sat down on our bed with her sobbing in his lap.
“Do you know what forgiveness means?” he asked her.
Hiccuping with tears she replied, “No, I-I don’t.”
“It means you are free! You are a free girl.”
She then ran to me and throwing her arms up, cried, “Mama! I’m free!”
I couldn’t believe it. She, my little baby in diapers, had grasped what it means to be forgiven by God. With her arms flung out and a smile lighting up her face, she knew and felt without any doubts or second guesses that her sins were no more. Here I was – her mom – unable to see that Jesus has completely and totally forgiven me of all my sins! As I held her in my arms, her freedom from her sin was almost tangible, and I wanted that too. That time may have been the first time I realized that the lessons my daughter was being taught by God were also the lessons He was teaching me.
“As far as the east is from the west,
So far has He removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:12